In the past few years, I have found myself in between a rock and a hard place. I hate to work out because it sucks and sometimes hurts, but if I don't work out I will stay the way I am. The problem? I figured it out. Last night, I think I began to have what is going to be a break through. Cameron and I came home from a "date" and (without going into details) something happened that made me cry. As I was explaining my feelings, I blurted out, "This is not who I am. I do not like my body; it isn't me! I feel like I am inside a body that doesn't fit!" BINGO!!! I had said it out loud and realized what a truth it is. I don't want to stay the way I am which means working out....rock and hard place.
Do you want to know who I am inside? Well, at least what my body would possibly look like if my inside matched my outside.
This is Alicia Sacramone, a world champion medalist, I think she has the muscular build and physique that I feel I am personality wise.
She is way strong and the attitude in the second picture is about right sometimes, too! :)
So, Monday and Tuesday I did the dance video with Crystal. Yesterday I took the day off and had a mental breakthrough, I think. This morning, at 8:00 a.m. I went for a jog. I did a 5 minute walking warm-up and then alternated 2 minutes of jogging and 2 minutes of walking for 20 minutes; I finished with a 7 minute cool down. I got home and did 100 crunchies (5 sets of 20: upper, lower, right oblique, left oblique, upper) and a 20 second plank. Then I stretched. Tomorrow, I will do some strength training. Hopefully, this is my point of success!
